Author Archives: Sour Girl

I can’t tell my mother that I’m drowning

Almost 2 weeks on and I still have the remnants of this ‘flu from hell’ that won’t piss off and let me get on with my non-life. I’ve never been hit by a virus like this nor has it ever … Continue reading

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Weekends are becoming increasingly unbearable

It’s actually harder to go out here than it was in Rochester at weekends, as much as I hate to admit that.  There seems to be a higher percentage of families with children living here and these are the last … Continue reading

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Reopened wounds, present failure

If you exclude the 3 week period that I had to return to the US to get the rest of my stuff and tie up loose ends, I’ve been here 4 months now.  In that time, I’ve applied for a … Continue reading

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Trapped alone in a world that I fear and a body that I hate

I’m over the worst of the flu, but my mental health continues to slowly deteriorate. The clock is ticking away and failure is imminent. I am unable to face the world and I’m hopelessly out of my depth and completely … Continue reading

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Fucking flu

This isn’t just a cold, it’s flu and a nasty strain of flu at that. I haven’t been this ill since 2006, when I was living in Miami at the time and at least it wasn’t a struggle to keep … Continue reading

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Chronic pain

Among the things I can no longer live with, chronic pain is right up there with my mental health issues, dysphoria and personal failures. I’ve had lumbar spinal stenosis since my mid 20’s, but it’s got worse and it’s got … Continue reading

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Feeling ugly, old and sick in the ‘Steel City’

I picked up the 2 vintage bikes that I bought on Facebook Marketplace, one from Boston (Lincolnshire) and the other from Sheffield. The one I bought from Boston is 60 years old, while the one I bought in Sheffield was … Continue reading

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