Tag Archives: aging

The truths that I’ve been forced to live by

THE TRUTHS THAT I’VE BEEN FORCED TO LIVE BY: Looks are not only important, but extremely important in today’s image obsessed, superficial society. Money can buy happiness, especially if it involves paying for cosmetic surgery or being able to afford … Continue reading

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Ugly and lonely in Perth, Glasgow and Stirling

I wasn’t planning on returning to this blog for a while.  I’m tired of bearing my soul on here, as I feel like no one is listening and even if they are, it’s unlikely that they understand (or care to … Continue reading

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Why I don’t want to grow old alone (or at all)

I can’t sleep.  Clearly, the pills the random wasted guy with his girlfriend at Edinburgh Waverley station were indeed speed.  I’m not overly keen on speed, because it just makes me hyper and unable to sleep, without the euphoria that … Continue reading

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I don’t want to be here

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide I’m not looking for attention or pity and I’m especially not looking for unsolicited advice from random people trying to convince me to keep on going.  I’ve done a lot of reflecting and I cannot come up … Continue reading

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Childless, not childfree

I recently tried to connect with people in a childfree group on Facebook, but I soon realized that the label ‘childfree’ doesn’t apply to me and it would be wrong of me to use it. Childfree people are people who … Continue reading

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Having to hide my suicidal ideation from the outside world (I’ve no intention of getting old)

While we were at the cafe of the garden center, my mum was trying to urge me to ‘sign on’ for Jobseekers Allowance, even if it’s just to get my National Insurance (state pension) contributions paid until I am able … Continue reading

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List of reasons to live vs. reasons not to

** TRIGGER WARNING ** I’m a weirdo and I like making lists, because they help me to organize my thoughts and priorities.  One particular list has had several iterations over the years is my list of reasons to live versus … Continue reading

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