Tag Archives: agoraphobia

A very wet Friday evening

I got absolutely drenched while riding my bike back from my mum’s last night.  Not only was it pissing down with rain, but my bike has no mudguards, so I got all the spray from the many puddles on the … Continue reading

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A different kind of loneliness

I know that I most likely have to move again, but I think it’s time I just disappeared instead.  There are no actual conflicts with my roommates (yet), but it’s become very apparent that our personalities and lifestyles are VERY … Continue reading

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Fighting anxiety and agoraphobic tendencies

I decided to go out again earlier, because I wanted to try depositing cash into my PayPal account at CVS again, after I failed to do it last time and had an anxiety attack in the process.  I went to … Continue reading

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Back to (un)supportive housing…

The property manager confirmed yesterday that I haven’t lost my old apartment and that I’m free to return.  My friend is taking me back today, after my therapy session at 4pm, which my care manager is also attending.  On paper, … Continue reading

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Anxiety: my own personal jailer

I always get frustrated when I plan to go out, but end up being unable to because of my anxiety.  It is like living with an invisible jailer that doesn’t require concrete walls, bars or keys to keep me from … Continue reading

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Brief optimism killed by yet another ‘scare’ last night

People often accuse me of negative thinking or tell me that I over-exaggerate or make things up, but I’m honestly not making any of this up.  When good things happen to me, I write about them, just as I do … Continue reading

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My worry train is a high speed TGV (housing and travel woes)

I can’t sleep because I can’t switch off my brain, which is tormenting me with incessant worrying.  Sleep deprivation is really starting to screw me up, not just mentally but physically.  To put it bluntly, and to keep with the … Continue reading

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