Tag Archives: agoraphobia

This isn’t going to work out

I’ve been staying at K’s house for just over a week now,but already I feel like it’s not going to work out.  I don’t feel particularly safe here, or anywhere in England for that matter.  Walking the dog is proving … Continue reading

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Feeling very hopeless and scared

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation  I knew that returning to England would be a huge mistake.  I’ve only been here just over a week and already I’m feeling very hopeless and scared.  It’s just too populated here and not only … Continue reading

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A very wet Friday evening

I got absolutely drenched while riding my bike back from my mum’s last night.  Not only was it pissing down with rain, but my bike has no mudguards, so I got all the spray from the many puddles on the … Continue reading

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A different kind of loneliness

I know that I most likely have to move again, but I think it’s time I just disappeared instead.  There are no actual conflicts with my roommates (yet), but it’s become very apparent that our personalities and lifestyles are VERY … Continue reading

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Fighting anxiety and agoraphobic tendencies

I decided to go out again earlier, because I wanted to try depositing cash into my PayPal account at CVS again, after I failed to do it last time and had an anxiety attack in the process.  I went to … Continue reading

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Back to (un)supportive housing…

The property manager confirmed yesterday that I haven’t lost my old apartment and that I’m free to return.  My friend is taking me back today, after my therapy session at 4pm, which my care manager is also attending.  On paper, … Continue reading

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Anxiety: my own personal jailer

I always get frustrated when I plan to go out, but end up being unable to because of my anxiety.  It is like living with an invisible jailer that doesn’t require concrete walls, bars or keys to keep me from … Continue reading

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