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Back on the saddle again

My friend has kindly let me borrow her bike, so I ventured out on it twice yesterday, sticking to the nearby vicinity so as to get accustomed to it and to cycling here, which is quite a different experience from … Continue reading

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Made it to the Netherlands in one piece; the journey here was hassle-free

I arrived in Delft (Netherlands) yesterday after a hassle-free journey on Eurostar and Dutch InterCity trains.  My friend was there to meet me at Amsterdam Centraal train station, which wasn’t anywhere near as busy or chaotic as I’d expected.  I … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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The last pictures I’ll ever take of Grantham

I’m leaving in 8 days and those 8 days cannot pass quickly enough, although I’m also nervous about it as I’ll be venturing into the unknown.  I’m at my wit’s end with living in Grantham and I will never return … Continue reading

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Living here has been like serving a 6 month prison sentence

I don’t have to express how much I hate weekends, especially here in Grantham.  I’m tired of feeling like a prisoner stuck in my flat, unable to go out because of the plethora of kids, teenagers and families living in … Continue reading

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Another highly triggering encounter with my mother (family of origin)

TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm I had a truly awful day yesterday (Tuesday), which culminated in another major fight with my mother.  Once again, she managed to upset me when I went over to her house around lunchtime.  I only went … Continue reading

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I wasn’t prepared for any of this (living alone in a small English town, the past, fear of children and teenagers)

My mum and I are talking again, although nothing has been resolved and never will be.  She seems to have accepted that I’m leaving Grantham and our conversations have returned to the safety of talking about the cats.  I have … Continue reading

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