Tag Archives: alcohol

I wish I’d never come back to the United Kingdom (this is not my home anymore)

I truly fucked up when I returned to the United Kingdom last November. It was probably the second biggest mistake of my life, the first being dragging S (my ex-wife) into my hell and wasting 9 years of her life.  … Continue reading

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Drunken envy and self-loathing in Dundee

I went to Dundee on the train yesterday (Thursday).  I’ve now been to every major / medium sized city in the United Kingdom.  I drank way too much and I still have a hangover (and I don’t usually even get … Continue reading

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Back in Scotland (and I bought a used bike)

I breathed a huge sigh of relief as the train from Newcastle to Edinburgh crossed the Scottish border just north of the town of Berwick-upon-Tweed.  I was even more relieved to be back in Edinburgh, where I had a 4 … Continue reading

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The end of an awful two weeks

I leave South Shields tomorrow, thank fuck.  I’m going back to Scotland, where I have an Airbnb flat booked for almost an entire month.  This has been an awful two week period in which I’ve descended into alcoholism again, as … Continue reading

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I have to binge drink just to get through the day here

I’ve been in this hellhole known as ‘South Shields aka ‘Grantham-by-the-Sea’ since July 19th and I don’t leave until Friday.  I should never have come to this terrible seaside, family friendly place, but I didn’t know it would be this … Continue reading

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I hate Brexit England (a nation of family friendly fascism)

I no longer see people as human beings anymore; I see them as the source of much of my pain and virtually all of my anxiety.  Envy has completely consumed me and if I had any predisposition to anger or … Continue reading

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Delayed trauma

It’s been raining since the early hours of this morning, which is good news as it means there won’t be many people going to the beach today, so hopefully I won’t be tormented by the sound of families and children … Continue reading

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