Tag Archives: alcoholism

Best fraud

In the back end of 2017, I connected with someone on here who followed my blog  She became my best friend, but I now consider her my “best fraud”, because a fraud is exactly what she turned out to be.  … Continue reading

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I wish I’d never come back to the United Kingdom (this is not my home anymore)

I truly fucked up when I returned to the United Kingdom last November. It was probably the second biggest mistake of my life, the first being dragging S (my ex-wife) into my hell and wasting 9 years of her life.  … Continue reading

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I have to binge drink just to get through the day here

I’ve been in this hellhole known as ‘South Shields aka ‘Grantham-by-the-Sea’ since July 19th and I don’t leave until Friday.  I should never have come to this terrible seaside, family friendly place, but I didn’t know it would be this … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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I hardly get any likes, but it’s actually quite depressing that my ‘One week sober‘ blog entry is still getting likes, but I failed at my attempt to quit drinking after just 8 days.  I’m a failure, but I’m not … Continue reading

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My prison without walls or bars

I hate weekends, but I hate bank holiday weekends even more and this long weekend is proving to be a difficult one.  I’ve been struggling with depression, loneliness and restless thoughts.  I haven’t drank at all today, because I’m saving … Continue reading

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Relapse day

TRIGGER WARNING: alcoholism, self-harm Today I drank 3/4 of a bottle of vodka.  I didn’t plan on today being the day I finally gave in, bit after going out earlier and discovering that kids and teenagers were off school due … Continue reading

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