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I could never have been a parent anyway

I should’ve given up my dreams of becoming a parent a long time ago.  The experience I’ve had with K’s son has proven to me that I’d have been a colossal failure as a mother.  K is back from her … Continue reading

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If I thought that de-transitioning would allow me to fit in and be normal, I would

I’ve had a bit too much to drink and this blog is a place of honesty, so I would just like to say that if I thought that de-transitioning would allow me to fit in and be normal, I would … Continue reading

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Ghosted again

I’ve been ghosted so many times by people that I’m surprised I haven’t had paranormal investigators knocking at my door yet.  Both A and B have essentially ghosted me. I was supposed to meet A today for coffee, but she … Continue reading

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Shiturday

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide I don’t have to explain why I hate weekends, particularly Saturdays.  I did manage to go out to Asda first thing this morning to buy groceries, as there was a gap between the rain showers that have … Continue reading

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Walking alone (and feeling ugly) in the city where “you’ll never walk alone”

As I mentioned in my last blog entry, I went into Liverpool city centre on Friday afternoon on the train, taking my bike with me.  I’d been to Liverpool a few times before when K was living in the city … Continue reading

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I hate England and I don’t belong here, or in the ‘Remain’ movement

I feel very low today.  Obviously, I didn’t go to that protest in Liverpool, as I’m here screaming into the depths of cyberspace again.  It’s not ab actual ‘march’ type protest anyway, but an anti-austerity rally that is more about … Continue reading

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A very uncertain future (just 2 more days in Scotland)

I’m not drinking again for a while.  The only reason I drank earlier was because I had to take my clothes to the launderette and as a dyspraxic weirdo with severe anxiety, launderettes are extremely stressful places for me.  The … Continue reading

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