Tag Archives: alone

Annoying, repetitive and invisible (this is me screaming into the void)

Sometimes I wonder if I should cut down on the amount of garbage I write here or even just stop completely for a while and just keep a private diary.  Whenever I write, I feel like I’m yelling into the … Continue reading

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Love and support are essential for recovery from mental illness, trauma and addiction

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide I hope this doesn’t come across as too ‘rant-y’ but it’s an issue I feel strongly about, based on my own experiences and from the experiences of others in similar situations, i.e. alone with a lack or … Continue reading

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This ain’t worth it

I have nothing and no one to live for.  I’m not even living; I’m existing.  I derive no joy from life whatsoever and I’m already dead to the world, i.e. invisible  I see absolutely no point in carrying on and … Continue reading

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My prison without walls or bars

I hate weekends, but I hate bank holiday weekends even more and this long weekend is proving to be a difficult one.  I’ve been struggling with depression, loneliness and restless thoughts.  I haven’t drank at all today, because I’m saving … Continue reading

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The friends I’ve lost because of my mental illness

I came across this article on The Mighty earlier and it really resonated with me: Letter To the Friends I’ve Lost Because of my Depression – The Mighty Many of us have lost friends because of our depression / mental … Continue reading

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Is there anybody actually out there?

Weekends are the worst and this weekend if no exception, especially as I have (for now) forced myself to stop drinking.  The loneliness is fucking unbearable, at a time when I really really need someone to talk to, even if … Continue reading

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My mother (and her husband) showed up and it ended badly

In case you give a flying fuck, no I’m not okay. My mum and her husband showed up at my flat earlier.  I didn’t know they were coming and I didn’t answer the door when I heard someone knocking, but … Continue reading

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