Tag Archives: anxiety

I can’t tell my mother that I’m drowning

Almost 2 weeks on and I still have the remnants of this ‘flu from hell’ that won’t piss off and let me get on with my non-life. I’ve never been hit by a virus like this nor has it ever … Continue reading

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Reopened wounds, present failure

If you exclude the 3 week period that I had to return to the US to get the rest of my stuff and tie up loose ends, I’ve been here 4 months now.  In that time, I’ve applied for a … Continue reading

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Trapped alone in a world that I fear and a body that I hate

I’m over the worst of the flu, but my mental health continues to slowly deteriorate. The clock is ticking away and failure is imminent. I am unable to face the world and I’m hopelessly out of my depth and completely … Continue reading

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Dyspraxia + anxiety + the ‘trans curse’ = embarrassment

I hate Friday nights and weekends, but at least the school holidays are coming to an end on Monday, so I can try to resume my usual ‘going out’ routine when it isn’t dark or extremely early in the morning. … Continue reading

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Referred to the wrong place (yet again)

I received a letter today from the NHS operated mental health organization that I’d been told to ‘self refer’ to by my GP telling me that they are unable to help me, as they are only commissioned to treat ‘low … Continue reading

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No more getting splashed and splattered while riding my bike

I was debating going to Nottingham or Derby on the train and taking my bike and digital camera, but I opted against it in the end due to the fact that I’d probably encounter a lot of kids and parents … Continue reading

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The holidays are dragging

I wish the holidays were over already, but the time is dragging on and there’s still another full week to go before the school holidays end.  Due to my fear of encountering kids and teenagers, I’m restricted to only being … Continue reading

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