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One more week in Scotland & 48 hours of sobriety

Despite my intrusive thoughts and restlessness, I’ve been resisting the urge to drink since Tuesday, so it’s been 48 hours.  Since the school holidays have ended, and the weather looks good tomorrow, I’m going on a long bike ride.  I’m … Continue reading

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Four (completely infeasible) alternatives to suicide

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, dark thoughts It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep (surprise).  I feel tired, but I have a lot of restless energy and a mind racing with intrusive thoughts.  I’m angry at the world and angrier still with … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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Staring into the no-deal Brexit abyss (long, mostly emotion-based rant)

I’m really starting to worry incessantly about the approaching Brexit deadline on October 21, 2019.  It was supposed to happen on Match 31st, but the extension has allowed for an extension of my borrowed time and allowed me to spend … Continue reading

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I really fucking hate weekends and ‘weekend people’

Another ‘I hate weekends’ blog entry, but it’s true…I really fucking hate weekends and ‘weekend people ‘with a passion.  From Friday evening to Sunday night, it’s much harder for me to go out because the enemy (people) are everywhere.  Saturdays … Continue reading

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Ugly and lonely in Perth, Glasgow and Stirling

I wasn’t planning on returning to this blog for a while.  I’m tired of bearing my soul on here, as I feel like no one is listening and even if they are, it’s unlikely that they understand (or care to … Continue reading

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I wish there were childfree communities

You’ve probably guessed by now from many of my blog entries that I don’t like children;  in fact, I hate them.  Before you jump down my throat for it, it’s not the kind of hate that would ever lead me … Continue reading

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