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One more week in Scotland & 48 hours of sobriety

Despite my intrusive thoughts and restlessness, I’ve been resisting the urge to drink since Tuesday, so it’s been 48 hours.  Since the school holidays have ended, and the weather looks good tomorrow, I’m going on a long bike ride.  I’m … Continue reading

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Greetings from the scrapheap (being long-term unemployed and unemployable)

One of the reasons for wanting to die that I listed yesterday is ‘long-term unemployment’.  Granted, it’s not in the top 5, but it’s a valid and legitimate reason for wanting out and many suicides have been attributed to long-term … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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“Everyone has problems” = shitty, unsolicited advice

A friend of mine in the US shared the meme above on her Facebook feed and it truly resonated with me.  Like me, she is alone and completely marginalised.  She lives with her parents and is terrified of what will … Continue reading

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I wish there were childfree communities

You’ve probably guessed by now from many of my blog entries that I don’t like children;  in fact, I hate them.  Before you jump down my throat for it, it’s not the kind of hate that would ever lead me … Continue reading

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K (my ex-girlfriend) still wants me to move in with her

As I mentioned in my last entry, I got back in touch with K recently.  Admittedly, I was drunk when I emailed her and apologized, but she still wants me to move in with her, even if it’s just for … Continue reading

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The end of an awful two weeks

I leave South Shields tomorrow, thank fuck.  I’m going back to Scotland, where I have an Airbnb flat booked for almost an entire month.  This has been an awful two week period in which I’ve descended into alcoholism again, as … Continue reading

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