Tag Archives: Beckwith-Wiedemann Syndrome

Brexit might not happen after all (but I refuse to ‘hope’)

Even though my drinking has been helping me sleep a bit, it hasn’t stopped the nightmares or the intensity of them.  I should try to get more sleep as I’m going to London for the day later to get the … Continue reading

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So many ‘success stories’ on the internet, but they don’t give me hope or inspiration

I’ve read so many success stories on the internet about how people have overcome one or more of the curses I was born with such as dyspraxia, hyperidrosis and transition.  While I’m happy for those people, I cannot help feeling … Continue reading

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My predisposition to experiencing trauma

It seems that every therapy session is wasted because I vent too much as a result of having no one to talk to.  But I’ve been noticing lately that I cannot steer my therapist away from attributing many of my … Continue reading

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The reasons why I want to end my life (updated periodically)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide I’ve been feeling very low over the past few days, mainly due to situational depression, dysphoria and feeling completely and utterly alone and scared. Suicidal thoughts never leave me, but they intensify when I spend too much … Continue reading

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‘Dying’ to escape this body

Nothing has changed from my last update, except that as time passes, my fear of dying is diminishing as I slide further towards the inevitable. I know for sure that it won’t get better and I wish that other people … Continue reading

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List of reasons to live vs. reasons not to

** TRIGGER WARNING ** I’m a weirdo and I like making lists, because they help me to organize my thoughts and priorities.  One particular list has had several iterations over the years is my list of reasons to live versus … Continue reading

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The ugly truth (de-transition)

I honestly wish that I could just erase my gender identity from my mind and de-transition.  I don’t like being transgender and I’m not proud of it – I hate every second of it.  It’s not that I am unsure … Continue reading

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