Tag Archives: borrowed time

I don’t feel ‘real’ anymore

In the eyes of many, I probably appear quite high functioning, but I am anything but. While I can cook, clean and wipe my own ass, but it’s often game over as soon as I have to deal with people … Continue reading

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Trapped alone in a world that I fear and a body that I hate

I’m over the worst of the flu, but my mental health continues to slowly deteriorate. The clock is ticking away and failure is imminent. I am unable to face the world and I’m hopelessly out of my depth and completely … Continue reading

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Dyspraxia + anxiety + the ‘trans curse’ = embarrassment

I hate Friday nights and weekends, but at least the school holidays are coming to an end on Monday, so I can try to resume my usual ‘going out’ routine when it isn’t dark or extremely early in the morning. … Continue reading

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Back in hiding

I spent 3 days at my mum’s, taking care of Lily and Madge. I decided to leave a bit early, because I’m sure my mum and her husband wouldn’t have wanted to run into my ugly face after driving for … Continue reading

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Wondering how much “borrowed time” I have left

I forced myself out earlier to buy groceries and almost got frostbite in the process, because I’d forgotten to bring my proper gloves.  Fortunately, a stranger pulled up and offered me a ride and as I was so freezing and … Continue reading

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