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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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It just keeps getting worse…

I’m having major problems getting my HRT medication (estrogen) and it’s really starting to worry me.  The pharmacy was unable to obtain my medication because pf a “manufacturer issue” and they can’t even find an alternative brand.  I’m convinced that … Continue reading

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Final update from the Netherlands

I have to return to the UK today.  Obviously, I’m feeling anything *but* good about it.  I have no support and no family there, just painful memories and I’m returning to a divided, angry UK  that bears little resemblance to … Continue reading

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Dear random people on the internet: please stop telling me that “life is worth living”

I wish people who don’t know me or what I’ve gone through for most of my life would stop doubting my desire to die, as if it were some sort of whim or temporary problem, rather than a lifetime of … Continue reading

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When I die

When I die: I want the remains of this hideous body burned to ashes (cremated) as nothing would give me greater satisfaction or a greater sense of justice for all I’ve been through.  I don’t give a shit what happens … Continue reading

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Just waiting to die (borrowed time)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation My existence has descended into little more than a lonely, binge drinking haze.  The bottle is now the only ‘friend’ I have left and the only thing I can trust in this world.  It doesn’t … Continue reading

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If you’re serious about preventing suicide, it’s time to think outside the box

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, mortality Back in September 2017, I wrote a blog entry about suicide prevention advocates and how they don’t actually listen: To ‘suicide prevention advocates (please LISTEN for once) – September 23, 2017 It was in response to … Continue reading

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