Tag Archives: death

Dear random people on the internet: please stop telling me that “life is worth living”

I wish people who don’t know me or what I’ve gone through for most of my life would stop doubting my desire to die, as if it were some sort of whim or temporary problem, rather than a lifetime of … Continue reading

Posted in Transgender & Mental Health Issues | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , | 5 Comments

When I die

When I die: I want the remains of this hideous body burned to ashes (cremated) as nothing would give me greater satisfaction or a greater sense of justice for all I’ve been through.  I don’t give a shit what happens … Continue reading

Posted in Transgender & Mental Health Issues | Tagged , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Just waiting to die (borrowed time)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation My existence has descended into little more than a lonely, binge drinking haze.  The bottle is now the only ‘friend’ I have left and the only thing I can trust in this world.  It doesn’t … Continue reading

Posted in Transgender & Mental Health Issues | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

If you’re serious about preventing suicide, it’s time to think outside the box

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, mortality Back in September 2017, I wrote a blog entry about suicide prevention advocates and how they don’t actually listen: To ‘suicide prevention advocates (please LISTEN for once) – September 23, 2017 It was in response to … Continue reading

Posted in Transgender & Mental Health Issues | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

You don’t have to hold on; sometimes pain never ends

I got into an argument with someone on Facebook about a subject that seems to be taboo and off limits for most people….the subject of suicide and mortality. It seems that whenever I try to explain to people that I … Continue reading

Posted in Transgender & Mental Health Issues | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Having to hide my suicidal ideation from the outside world (I’ve no intention of getting old)

While we were at the cafe of the garden center, my mum was trying to urge me to ‘sign on’ for Jobseekers Allowance, even if it’s just to get my National Insurance (state pension) contributions paid until I am able … Continue reading

Posted in Transgender & Mental Health Issues | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

I badly need support, but I have none

If I make it that far, this Christmas is going to be a very difficult one.  I’m already dreading it, having been exposed to Christmas commercials on the radio while driving and being told by the Airbnb host that I … Continue reading

Posted in Transgender & Mental Health Issues | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment