Tag Archives: depression

Four (completely infeasible) alternatives to suicide

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, dark thoughts It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep (surprise).  I feel tired, but I have a lot of restless energy and a mind racing with intrusive thoughts.  I’m angry at the world and angrier still with … Continue reading

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Greetings from the scrapheap (being long-term unemployed and unemployable)

One of the reasons for wanting to die that I listed yesterday is ‘long-term unemployment’.  Granted, it’s not in the top 5, but it’s a valid and legitimate reason for wanting out and many suicides have been attributed to long-term … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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Individuals on both sides are often as bad as one another and blissfully unaware of their level of privilege

If you were to offer me a pill or an injection that would kill me on the spot, I would take it without hesitation.  Lately it seems that every day is the worst day that I’ve ever had.  here is … Continue reading

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I really fucking hate weekends and ‘weekend people’

Another ‘I hate weekends’ blog entry, but it’s true…I really fucking hate weekends and ‘weekend people ‘with a passion.  From Friday evening to Sunday night, it’s much harder for me to go out because the enemy (people) are everywhere.  Saturdays … Continue reading

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Ugly and lonely in Perth, Glasgow and Stirling

I wasn’t planning on returning to this blog for a while.  I’m tired of bearing my soul on here, as I feel like no one is listening and even if they are, it’s unlikely that they understand (or care to … Continue reading

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K (my ex-girlfriend) still wants me to move in with her

As I mentioned in my last entry, I got back in touch with K recently.  Admittedly, I was drunk when I emailed her and apologized, but she still wants me to move in with her, even if it’s just for … Continue reading

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