Tag Archives: depression

If they try to push the dreaded ‘m’ word on me (mindfulness), I’m walking out

I have a mental health assessment tomorrow morning at 8:30.  It’s weird that it’s on a Sunday, but I’m not complaining about that.  K said she’d come with me, but I’m not sure if that’s a good idea, as I … Continue reading

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I could never have been a parent anyway

I should’ve given up my dreams of becoming a parent a long time ago.  The experience I’ve had with K’s son has proven to me that I’d have been a colossal failure as a mother.  K is back from her … Continue reading

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From one awful situation and into another (and repeat 1,547,563 times)

Just when I think things can’t possibly get any worse, they do.  I can’t elaborate too much, but K has got herself involved with a very bad person whose flat she was using to ‘work’ out of.  This person has … Continue reading

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Screaming into the void

No fancy words here…I feel really low at the moment and I’m desperate for ‘life’ to be over.  I’m still too cowardly to do what I need to do and I wish I could get hold of drugs to take … Continue reading

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Anhedonia (inability to experience joy or pleasure)

I learnt a new word the other day: anhedonia, which means inability to experience pleasure.   Although anhedonia is a core symptom of depression, it’s a spectrum and I’m at the ass end of the anhedonia spectrum for sure.  All of … Continue reading

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When I say “There is no help”, I mean it

It should be no surprise when I say that I’m having an extremely difficult time with my living situation, dysphoria and mental health problems.  I don’t know what to do anymore, because I no longer have the money to find … Continue reading

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Shiturday

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide I don’t have to explain why I hate weekends, particularly Saturdays.  I did manage to go out to Asda first thing this morning to buy groceries, as there was a gap between the rain showers that have … Continue reading

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