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Another dystopian Brexit nightmare

Life won’t ever stop tormenting me, will it?  Sleep should be something I look forward to, but I can’t, because of my nightmares. The nightmare I had earlier was of a post-Brexit version of Britain.  I was squatting in a … Continue reading

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Drunken envy and self-loathing in Dundee

I went to Dundee on the train yesterday (Thursday).  I’ve now been to every major / medium sized city in the United Kingdom.  I drank way too much and I still have a hangover (and I don’t usually even get … Continue reading

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Another dream involving my ex-wife (why does life keep tormenting me like this?)

I woke up around 4 am this morning with a splitting headache, after having a dream involving my ex-wife that brought me to tears after the reality hit that it was just a dream and that she wasn’t really here.  … Continue reading

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I can’t do this (envy, painful dreams, exhaustion and pretending)

I slept for a few hours, but I experienced an intensely painful dream involving my ex-wife, but waking up from the dream was even worse when I realized she wasn’t there.  The dream also managed to torment me with something … Continue reading

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The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had

I had a very vivid dream last night in which I’d died in a car crash in Canada.  Between death and leaving this wretched body,  S (my ex-wife and soulmate) was there to see me off and to make sure … Continue reading

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On the wrong track (figuratively and literally)

The weather has finally cooled off (somewhat), so I went out on my bike yesterday and cycled 23 miles.  I had planned to cycle all the way to Scottsville, but I didn’t feel comfortable, so I turned around just 6 … Continue reading

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Losing you over and over again (in my dreams)

I’ve been experiencing dreams involving my ex-wife for the last few nights.  I don’t know why she keeps coming into my dreams, but it’s extremely painful, as I have to go through losing her all over again when I wake … Continue reading

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