Tag Archives: drinking

I drink because I don’t want to think

This is a special “fuck you” to the so-called “best friend” who reintroduced me to alcohol every time she would call me drunk as fuck.  I don’t actually blame her though, because I’d have to have to be drunk to … Continue reading

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A very stressful day

I got back from Peterborough just before midnight last night, after being out all day.  It was a stressful ordeal and it’s going to take me a few days to mentally recover from it,  While I did manage to get … Continue reading

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Avoiding people is my only goal in life

K has gone away for the night working again and her son has gone to stay with her brother, so the cats and I have the house to ourselves for 24 hours.  I’m not going out today or tomorrow, as … Continue reading

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I’m being so blatantly taken advantage of

I had another very terrible day yesterday, which culminated in another meltdown and getting severely drunk.  I’ve not been able to be honest about what’s upsetting me here out of respect for K and her lifestyle choices, but I can … Continue reading

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I can’t live alone, but I can’t live with anyone either (apparently)

My existence has turned even more nightmarish since I returned to England at the end of last month.  Yesterday was probably the worst day I’ve had in a very long time.  To cap it all off, a ‘suicide note’ that … Continue reading

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I had another meltdown yesterday

I had another meltdown yesterday, after the pressure became too much for me to take and I was upset that K’s son had taken my bike, even though I’d mistakenly agreed to it (I suffer from delayed reaction thinking and … Continue reading

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Feeling very hopeless and scared

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation  I knew that returning to England would be a huge mistake.  I’ve only been here just over a week and already I’m feeling very hopeless and scared.  It’s just too populated here and not only … Continue reading

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