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Dyspraxia + anxiety + the ‘trans curse’ = embarrassment

I hate Friday nights and weekends, but at least the school holidays are coming to an end on Monday, so I can try to resume my usual ‘going out’ routine when it isn’t dark or extremely early in the morning. … Continue reading

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Another dream involving my ex-wife (why does life keep tormenting me like this?)

I woke up around 4 am this morning with a splitting headache, after having a dream involving my ex-wife that brought me to tears after the reality hit that it was just a dream and that she wasn’t really here.  … Continue reading

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I can’t take much more of this (the summer of hell, hyperhidrosis, feeling trapped and socially isolated)

The death of animals at the hands of human beings and animal cruelty seems to affect me more than people being cruel to one another these days. While we continue to destroy this planet by polluting it and consuming its … Continue reading

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Forced to go out on a Saturday due to unexpected ‘guests’

The worst happened and two random guests showed up here at around 11pm.  The host brought them up and showed them their room.  The talking between them woke me up, as I’d already drifted off to sleep thinking that I … Continue reading

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A painful 24 hours (the ‘trans trigger’, street harassment, embarrassment, loss of friends)

I wish I hadn’t gone out at all yesterday, but I had an appointment with my care manager and needed groceries.  I was harassed yet again by a coward in a passing car on the way to the clinic.  I … Continue reading

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Tired of being ‘visible’ in Rochester (I get that you hate me, but please leave me the fuck alone)

If things weren’t so dire right now, I’d be writing “once again, one of Rochester’s finest has ruined my day”, but there’s nothing good to ruin and I couldn’t possibly hate myself any more than I do.  But yet again, … Continue reading

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When I get it wrong…

I thought both of my roommates hated me, but clearly one of them doesn’t at lesst. I woke up crying aftet I bad dream that I’d had, so I went downstaurs to make coffee as I’m afraid of going back … Continue reading

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