Tag Archives: dysphoria

The ‘rational’ argument in favour of suicide and assisted dying

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide (obviously) I’m no fan of modern suicide prevention techniques for chronically suicidal people like me, nor am I a fan of ‘the ‘saviour’ SPA (suicide prevention activist) types.  The latter seem only concerned with preventing suicide itself, … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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I don’t want to be here

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide I’m not looking for attention or pity and I’m especially not looking for unsolicited advice from random people trying to convince me to keep on going.  I’ve done a lot of reflecting and I cannot come up … Continue reading

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Five days with my ex-girlfriend ended in dysphoria and disaster

I just got back to Grantham after spending 5 days with K, my ex-girlfriend in Runcorn.   As I predicted before I left when I had my doubts about going at all, it all ended very badly.  Once again, yours truly … Continue reading

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“People don’t like that sort of thing in Grantham” (anything non-heteronormtive / cisnormative)

I made the mistake of going out earlier because the weather was nice and I didn’t want to be cooped up in my flat until Monday.  I mixed some vodka and diet coke into a Lucozade bottle and rode one … Continue reading

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Unsolicited advice (when there is no help or when treatment hasn’t worked)

All too often, I’ve seen people dish out unsolicited advice to those suffering from mental health problems and loneliness, usually along the lines of “Seek professional help” or “Call the suicide hotline number” or “Check yourself into hospital”.  While this may be appropriate advice to … Continue reading

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The toxicity of my envy (and dysphoria too)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, self-harm I have a huge problem with envy of others and I can’t control it. If it’s bad, it causes me to spiral into a depressive, self-destructive episode that can last for days. I have so many … Continue reading

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