Tag Archives: envy

I’m being so blatantly taken advantage of

I had another very terrible day yesterday, which culminated in another meltdown and getting severely drunk.  I’ve not been able to be honest about what’s upsetting me here out of respect for K and her lifestyle choices, but I can … Continue reading

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Feeling very hopeless and scared

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation  I knew that returning to England would be a huge mistake.  I’ve only been here just over a week and already I’m feeling very hopeless and scared.  It’s just too populated here and not only … Continue reading

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I hate England and I don’t belong here, or in the ‘Remain’ movement

I feel very low today.  Obviously, I didn’t go to that protest in Liverpool, as I’m here screaming into the depths of cyberspace again.  It’s not ab actual ‘march’ type protest anyway, but an anti-austerity rally that is more about … Continue reading

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My bike trip to Dunkeld and Pitlochry turned into a nightmare (I totally fucking lost it)

My trip to Dunkeld and Pitlochry yesterday by train and bike ended terribly and it serves as concrete proof as to why I should not go out at weekends at all, or to anywhere where there are likely to be … Continue reading

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Four (completely infeasible) alternatives to suicide

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, dark thoughts It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep (surprise).  I feel tired, but I have a lot of restless energy and a mind racing with intrusive thoughts.  I’m angry at the world and angrier still with … Continue reading

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I feel like I’m losing control (envy, anger, hatred, very dark thoughts)

TRIGGER WARNING: all of it I s’snapped’ yesterday on Twitter, lashing out at dozens of people, many of whom were on my side.  I sad some awful things and even some disturbing things that I am not proud of.  I … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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