Tag Archives: ex-girlfriend

I had another meltdown yesterday

I had another meltdown yesterday, after the pressure became too much for me to take and I was upset that K’s son had taken my bike, even though I’d mistakenly agreed to it (I suffer from delayed reaction thinking and … Continue reading

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A very uncertain future (just 2 more days in Scotland)

I’m not drinking again for a while.  The only reason I drank earlier was because I had to take my clothes to the launderette and as a dyspraxic weirdo with severe anxiety, launderettes are extremely stressful places for me.  The … Continue reading

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One more week in Scotland & 48 hours of sobriety

Despite my intrusive thoughts and restlessness, I’ve been resisting the urge to drink since Tuesday, so it’s been 48 hours.  Since the school holidays have ended, and the weather looks good tomorrow, I’m going on a long bike ride.  I’m … Continue reading

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K (my ex-girlfriend) still wants me to move in with her

As I mentioned in my last entry, I got back in touch with K recently.  Admittedly, I was drunk when I emailed her and apologized, but she still wants me to move in with her, even if it’s just for … Continue reading

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The ‘black dog’ barking at my door

I’m having a difficult time managing my depression.  I know what’s causing it and if you’re one of the 3 people that read my blog, you’ll know what’s causing it without me having to go into too much detail.  All … Continue reading

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She triggered me again

K, my ex-girlfriend who I was planning to stay with for a while has triggered me again.  I understand that she’s autistic and has no filter, which causes her to be brutally honest.  But my brain doesn’t know how to … Continue reading

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Uglyface

I took the small lock box to my mum’s on Sunday evening.  Inside is a card and a USB flash drive containing my ‘final note’ and instructions for after my death.  Obviously, I didn’t tell her what was inside it … Continue reading

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