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More issues with my mother (and non-lonely, privileged people in general who don’t understand)

It was my mum’s birthday the other day, so I sent her an email saying ‘happy birthday’.  I know that’s completely pathetic, but we are really not on good terms.  We did exchange a few emails and she sent me … Continue reading

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No, I don’t like to be beside the seaside

I used to love the sea, summer and beaches when I was a kid, despite never being fond of summer weather.  But that’s when I fit in and was part of a (fake) family unit and had a friend or … Continue reading

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Missing my soulmate terribly and wishing that I could take back the pain and wasted years that I caused her

If I’m perfectly honest, I have not been right since my ex-wife and I divorced 7 years ago.  I know she couldn’t stay with me because of my transition and I know that my transition was a terrible blow to … Continue reading

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She doesn’t understand privilege / intersectionality (met with my mum yesterday)

I went over  to my mum’s yesterday evening.  While it didn’t end in an argument or even get heated at any point (the wine helped), there were numerous occasions where I failed to make myself heard and understood.  She kept … Continue reading

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Reflecting on the last 2 days with K (my ex-girlfriend)

I got back to Grantham this morning after spending 2 nights with K.  Miraculously, my fish survived the journey to their new home and despite how anxious I was driving from here to Runcorn and back, I returned the rental … Continue reading

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Another highly triggering encounter with my mother (family of origin)

TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm I had a truly awful day yesterday (Tuesday), which culminated in another major fight with my mother.  Once again, she managed to upset me when I went over to her house around lunchtime.  I only went … Continue reading

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I’m going to try living with K (my ex) for a while after all

K and I are talking again after the ‘misunderstanding’ from a couple of weeks ago.  She said that we can still try living together for a month to see how it goes.  I’m not thrilled by the idea, mainly because … Continue reading

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