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Dystopian Brexit nightmares

Last night was the second night in a row that I’ve had a dystopian nightmare about Brexit Britain. The one I had on Sunday night / Monday morning was worse though.  In the nightmare, I was arrested for simply being … Continue reading

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I’ve left Grantham for good

I’m at a Starbucks in St. Pancras International train station in London, waiting for my train to Amsterdam that doesn’t depart for another 6 hours, so I have a lot of time to kill.  I left Grantham for good at … Continue reading

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Today was okay, but I’m dreading tomorrow (Saturday)

I cycled just over 30 miles this morning, from Grantham to Nottingham along the Grantham Canal and through the villages of Bottesford,  Aslockton and Bingham (the same route as last time).  It took me just over 3 hours, but I … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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The last pictures I’ll ever take of Grantham

I’m leaving in 8 days and those 8 days cannot pass quickly enough, although I’m also nervous about it as I’ll be venturing into the unknown.  I’m at my wit’s end with living in Grantham and I will never return … Continue reading

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Met up with one of my Twitter followers today

I went into Nottingham today to meet up with one of my followers on Twitter, who I consider a friend.   She’d mentioned meeting up a couple of weeks ago, but I’d totally forgotten.  Fortunately, I was already planning to go … Continue reading

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I don’t want to be here

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide I’m not looking for attention or pity and I’m especially not looking for unsolicited advice from random people trying to convince me to keep on going.  I’ve done a lot of reflecting and I cannot come up … Continue reading

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