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Meaningless drivel about my weekend

I haven’t updated this blog for a while as it’s becoming increasing;y pointless and all I’m doing is repeating the same shit and rambling on about my boring, meaningless existence.  I’ve had a shitty cold for the last few days, … Continue reading

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I can’t enjoy movies (or anything else) anymore

K dragged me into Liverpool with her yesterday, as she didn’t want to go to her hospital appointment alone.  I was feeling depressed about my half-sister blocking me on Facebook before I’d even got the chance to know her, but … Continue reading

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I hate Brexit England (a nation of family friendly fascism)

I no longer see people as human beings anymore; I see them as the source of much of my pain and virtually all of my anxiety.  Envy has completely consumed me and if I had any predisposition to anger or … Continue reading

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Relapse day

TRIGGER WARNING: alcoholism, self-harm Today I drank 3/4 of a bottle of vodka.  I didn’t plan on today being the day I finally gave in, bit after going out earlier and discovering that kids and teenagers were off school due … Continue reading

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I’m quitting alcohol

I know I’ve unsuccessfully tried to quit alcohol before and have failed, but I really need to try harder this time.  I haven’t had a drink for 2 days now, i.e. since Tuesday.  That may not seem like a long … Continue reading

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Worried about being targeted by local teenagers

I didn’t realse that the schools had closed for Easter holidays until I went out on my bike earlier and saw kids and teenagers everywhere.  When I say ‘everywhere’, I am not exaggerating either.  I’ve never lived in a place … Continue reading

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Awful fucking day (Brexit HRT prescription problems,bike accident)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal ideation Today has been so awful that it could prove to be the day that served as the catalyst for me to finally act on the suicidal thoughts that plague me everyday. I’m too upset and too … Continue reading

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