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Depressed as fuck

I’m not good with words, especially when I’m at a particularly low point, i.e. the present.  So to say that I’m “depressed as fuck” is about as eloquent as I can be right now, as it’s the truth. I’ve been … Continue reading

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I had another meltdown yesterday

I had another meltdown yesterday, after the pressure became too much for me to take and I was upset that K’s son had taken my bike, even though I’d mistakenly agreed to it (I suffer from delayed reaction thinking and … Continue reading

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This is all too much, too soon

K is back, but things haven’t really improved as far as my mental health problems go.  She’s going away again for a night tomorrow an trusting me to be here for her son.  I think he’s a good kid,, but … Continue reading

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This isn’t going to work out

I’ve been staying at K’s house for just over a week now,but already I feel like it’s not going to work out.  I don’t feel particularly safe here, or anywhere in England for that matter.  Walking the dog is proving … Continue reading

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Feeling very hopeless and scared

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation  I knew that returning to England would be a huge mistake.  I’ve only been here just over a week and already I’m feeling very hopeless and scared.  It’s just too populated here and not only … Continue reading

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I miss my friend; I miss the Netherlands

I spent a month staying with my only remaining friend, S in the Netherlands for a month in June.  Honestly, it was the best month that I’ve had for as long as I can remember.  I usually have difficulty living … Continue reading

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Doing so little is draining me so much

I can’t sleep.  I was woken up earlier by people shouting, laughing and screaming in the street outside.  They’re making me anxious, actually.  It’s almost 3 am – I hate people.  I had a dream that I was back in the … Continue reading

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