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Today was okay, but I’m dreading tomorrow (Saturday)

I cycled just over 30 miles this morning, from Grantham to Nottingham along the Grantham Canal and through the villages of Bottesford,  Aslockton and Bingham (the same route as last time).  It took me just over 3 hours, but I … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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The last pictures I’ll ever take of Grantham

I’m leaving in 8 days and those 8 days cannot pass quickly enough, although I’m also nervous about it as I’ll be venturing into the unknown.  I’m at my wit’s end with living in Grantham and I will never return … Continue reading

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Met up with one of my Twitter followers today

I went into Nottingham today to meet up with one of my followers on Twitter, who I consider a friend.   She’d mentioned meeting up a couple of weeks ago, but I’d totally forgotten.  Fortunately, I was already planning to go … Continue reading

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Living here has been like serving a 6 month prison sentence

I don’t have to express how much I hate weekends, especially here in Grantham.  I’m tired of feeling like a prisoner stuck in my flat, unable to go out because of the plethora of kids, teenagers and families living in … Continue reading

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I wasn’t prepared for any of this (living alone in a small English town, the past, fear of children and teenagers)

My mum and I are talking again, although nothing has been resolved and never will be.  She seems to have accepted that I’m leaving Grantham and our conversations have returned to the safety of talking about the cats.  I have … Continue reading

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I REALLY need to leave this place for good

I went to Nottingham yesterday on the train and took Persephone (my purple bike that I bought back from New York with me).  I took the train from Grantham as far as Radcliffe, then cycled the rest of the way.  … Continue reading

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