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Fake friends, fake people and saviors and why I’m tired of being conned by them

Fake friends are worse than enemies, because at least you can count on your enemies to hate you and they never tried to earn, the n betray your trust. I’m very angry right now, mostly angry at myself for allowing … Continue reading

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I made a huge mistake in moving close to my mother (parental favoritism)

When I returned to the UK last November, I was sure that I’d be able to put the past behind me to some extent, in relation to my upbringing.  I thought that I’d finally be able to have a semi-decent … Continue reading

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Just waiting to die (borrowed time)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation My existence has descended into little more than a lonely, binge drinking haze.  The bottle is now the only ‘friend’ I have left and the only thing I can trust in this world.  It doesn’t … Continue reading

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Alone in the dark

I don’t wan to be awake right now, but I am.  It’s 3 am and even if I could get back to sleep, I don’t want to because I’m tired of the nightmares that have become so mentally exhausting in … Continue reading

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Two-tier family

Now that awful day on February 14th is over with, onto more pressing matters… I’ve fallen out with my mum. While she seems to have forgiven me for lashing out the other day on Whatsapp (she only ever seem to … Continue reading

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Brex-shitty day

Today has been very upsetting and I finally snapped at my mother for talking about my 2 younger half brothers. I didn’t sleep well last night and woke up from an intense nightmare around 2 am and I didn’t even … Continue reading

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Emotional validation from an unexpected source

My uncle came over earlier and we talked for quite a while. I wasn’t exactly in the mood, but I’m glad he came over. My mum often criticizes him for being aloof and not thinking of other, but that isn’t … Continue reading

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