Tag Archives: half brothers

Another awful exchange of words over email with my mother ends in tears

I can’t sleep, having been awake for the last 3 hours.  My mum emailed me earlier to ask me what it was that I wanted to talk about on Monday, as if she didn’t know, having clearly not listened to … Continue reading

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I made a huge mistake in moving close to my mother (parental favoritism)

When I returned to the UK last November, I was sure that I’d be able to put the past behind me to some extent, in relation to my upbringing.  I thought that I’d finally be able to have a semi-decent … Continue reading

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The toxicity of my envy (and dysphoria too)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, self-harm I have a huge problem with envy of others and I can’t control it. If it’s bad, it causes me to spiral into a depressive, self-destructive episode that can last for days. I have so many … Continue reading

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Brex-shitty day

Today has been very upsetting and I finally snapped at my mother for talking about my 2 younger half brothers. I didn’t sleep well last night and woke up from an intense nightmare around 2 am and I didn’t even … Continue reading

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I despise my half brothers (favoritism)

I wish my mum would stop mentioning my younger half brothers. It causes so much pain from envy, but I don’t know how to explain it to her. They were favored over me when we were growing up, partly because … Continue reading

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Reopened wounds, present failure

If you exclude the 3 week period that I had to return to the US to get the rest of my stuff and tie up loose ends, I’ve been here 4 months now.  In that time, I’ve applied for a … Continue reading

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Wishing I could completely hide my pain and resentment from my mother

I don’t want to upset my mum, which is why I had to “let it go” again yesterday, although I blame myself for being unable to keep this pain inside me, so as not to make her feel guilty. We … Continue reading

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