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I wish I’d never come back to the United Kingdom (this is not my home anymore)

I truly fucked up when I returned to the United Kingdom last November. It was probably the second biggest mistake of my life, the first being dragging S (my ex-wife) into my hell and wasting 9 years of her life.  … Continue reading

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K (my ex-girlfriend) still wants me to move in with her

As I mentioned in my last entry, I got back in touch with K recently.  Admittedly, I was drunk when I emailed her and apologized, but she still wants me to move in with her, even if it’s just for … Continue reading

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Continually fooled by people and their hidden agendas

It’s just past midnight and I can’t (and won’t) sleep, after waking up from an intense nightmare.  My lower back is in agony, with the pain radiating all the way down my right leg.  I’m extremely anxious because I have … Continue reading

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I’m so drained from doing so little and I believe that chronic loneliness and isolation are largely responsible

I know I’m screaming into the depths of space here.  The internet has become another lonely place for me, despite once being a place of solace where I could find real connections with people.  I’m now in a situation again … Continue reading

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On the move again

My time here in Falkirk is up tomorrow, so I’m going to another Airbnb.  This time it’s a studio flat on the eastern side of Edinburgh.   I picked it because it was cheap and because it’s likely to be a … Continue reading

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The ‘rational’ argument in favour of suicide and assisted dying

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide (obviously) I’m no fan of modern suicide prevention techniques for chronically suicidal people like me, nor am I a fan of ‘the ‘saviour’ SPA (suicide prevention activist) types.  The latter seem only concerned with preventing suicide itself, … Continue reading

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Living here has been like serving a 6 month prison sentence

I don’t have to express how much I hate weekends, especially here in Grantham.  I’m tired of feeling like a prisoner stuck in my flat, unable to go out because of the plethora of kids, teenagers and families living in … Continue reading

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