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A possible way out

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, drugs Contrary to what people like to assume about me, I really do want to die and have done for many years.  People like to assume that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but … Continue reading

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Why I don’t want to grow old alone (or at all)

I can’t sleep.  Clearly, the pills the random wasted guy with his girlfriend at Edinburgh Waverley station were indeed speed.  I’m not overly keen on speed, because it just makes me hyper and unable to sleep, without the euphoria that … Continue reading

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The queen of bullshitting got herself discharged

I’m back in Grantham-by-the-Sea (South Shields) after successfully discharging myself from the psychiatric ward in Edinburgh, where I’d been sectioned after a botched suicide attempt.  I’m not good at many things, but I am good at bullshitting, even when it … Continue reading

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Unsolicited advice (when there is no help or when treatment hasn’t worked)

All too often, I’ve seen people dish out unsolicited advice to those suffering from mental health problems and loneliness, usually along the lines of “Seek professional help” or “Call the suicide hotline number” or “Check yourself into hospital”.  While this may be appropriate advice to … Continue reading

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Dysphoria is ripping me apart….

It’s been a couple of days since I last updated this meaningless blog. I don’t think anyone read this anyway. I’m almost as ignored online as I am in the outside world (at least that’s how it feels). People get … Continue reading

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I received some amazing news yesterday (for both bottom and top surgery)

I received a call yesterday that I initially sent straight through to voicemail (as I do with all calls), but it was a lady calling me from Upstate University Hospital in Syracuse about sex reassignment surgery and that I have … Continue reading

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“She sees you as a man” (one of the worst days of my life)

I had yet another bomb dropped on me yesterday by my friend’s wife which was enough of a trigger to cause a major episode that landed me in the psychiatric emergency department.  I still have no idea why he chose … Continue reading

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