Tag Archives: HRT

One more week in Scotland & 48 hours of sobriety

Despite my intrusive thoughts and restlessness, I’ve been resisting the urge to drink since Tuesday, so it’s been 48 hours.  Since the school holidays have ended, and the weather looks good tomorrow, I’m going on a long bike ride.  I’m … Continue reading

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Staring into the no-deal Brexit abyss (long, mostly emotion-based rant)

I’m really starting to worry incessantly about the approaching Brexit deadline on October 21, 2019.  It was supposed to happen on Match 31st, but the extension has allowed for an extension of my borrowed time and allowed me to spend … Continue reading

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It just keeps getting worse…

I’m having major problems getting my HRT medication (estrogen) and it’s really starting to worry me.  The pharmacy was unable to obtain my medication because pf a “manufacturer issue” and they can’t even find an alternative brand.  I’m convinced that … Continue reading

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Awful, just awful

I have to get out of here.  My belongings are in South Shields and I’ve only got the clothes I’m wearing.  In a week, I have to be out of the Airbnb there.  The worst part of it all is … Continue reading

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Just waiting to die (borrowed time)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation My existence has descended into little more than a lonely, binge drinking haze.  The bottle is now the only ‘friend’ I have left and the only thing I can trust in this world.  It doesn’t … Continue reading

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Awful fucking day (Brexit HRT prescription problems,bike accident)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal ideation Today has been so awful that it could prove to be the day that served as the catalyst for me to finally act on the suicidal thoughts that plague me everyday. I’m too upset and too … Continue reading

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Brex-shitty day

Today has been very upsetting and I finally snapped at my mother for talking about my 2 younger half brothers. I didn’t sleep well last night and woke up from an intense nightmare around 2 am and I didn’t even … Continue reading

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