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Living here has been like serving a 6 month prison sentence

I don’t have to express how much I hate weekends, especially here in Grantham.  I’m tired of feeling like a prisoner stuck in my flat, unable to go out because of the plethora of kids, teenagers and families living in … Continue reading

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No longer a ‘night owl’

I used to be a night owl until I changed my sleep pattern to wake up early and fall asleep earlier My depression is worse in the evenings and worse still at night, when loneliness seems to affect me far … Continue reading

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I really do want to die

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide, suicidal ideation I’ve had a really bad few days, all things considered. My brain feels so scattered that I don’t know where to begin, but I honestly want to die. I’m tormented by the past and present … Continue reading

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A more difficult than usual weekend

I wasn’t going to update this thing again for a while because all I’m doing is talking to myself out loud and gone are the days when the internet was a place of solace and a place where I felt … Continue reading

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I don’t belong here, there or anywhere

I’ve been in a dark and lonely place for the last few days, even prior to seeing that headline about how the Trump Administration plan to erase transgender people’s identities (I wish someone would just ‘erase’ me from existence and … Continue reading

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Everything is draining (chronic tiredness)

One of the reasons why I don’t think I’ll survive in this world is that even seemingly minor and mundane tasks drain me, to the extent that I’m often wiped out for the rest of the entire day.  I went … Continue reading

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Being among the dead again….

Despite the fact that I barely slept last night, I decided to get up and out of the house before my two roommates woke up.  I’ve suffered with insomnia for years, but it’s been particularly severe since I moved into … Continue reading

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