Tag Archives: life

I can’t adult (seriously)

I woke up way too early this morning, following a nightmare involving being back in England and my mother.  My nightmares are traumatic, but at least the past can only haunt me in my dreams and nightmares now, as opposed … Continue reading

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Dear random people on the internet: please stop telling me that “life is worth living”

I wish people who don’t know me or what I’ve gone through for most of my life would stop doubting my desire to die, as if it were some sort of whim or temporary problem, rather than a lifetime of … Continue reading

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I would be better off in a mental institution

I’m not joking either….. It’s a pity that mental institutions no longer exist. If they were run properly and with plenty of oversight, there would be far fewer drug addicts, alcoholics and homeless people than there are at present. There … Continue reading

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You don’t have to hold on; sometimes pain never ends

I got into an argument with someone on Facebook about a subject that seems to be taboo and off limits for most people….the subject of suicide and mortality. It seems that whenever I try to explain to people that I … Continue reading

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I don’t belong here, there or anywhere

I’ve been in a dark and lonely place for the last few days, even prior to seeing that headline about how the Trump Administration plan to erase transgender people’s identities (I wish someone would just ‘erase’ me from existence and … Continue reading

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Isolation by choice

Social isolation isn’t something I would have chosen and it was largely forced on me because of who and what I am and my physical appearance.  But it’s got to the stage where I know nothing else but isolation.  It’s … Continue reading

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This isn’t a cry for help (there is no help)

TW: Suicide, suicidal ideation The suitcase I shipped is still stuck in ‘Clearance Event’ on DHLs tracking system and I’m freaking out at this point. The company I used to ship my case told me that this is normal, but … Continue reading

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