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More issues with my mother (and non-lonely, privileged people in general who don’t understand)

It was my mum’s birthday the other day, so I sent her an email saying ‘happy birthday’.  I know that’s completely pathetic, but we are really not on good terms.  We did exchange a few emails and she sent me … Continue reading

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K (my ex-girlfriend) still wants me to move in with her

As I mentioned in my last entry, I got back in touch with K recently.  Admittedly, I was drunk when I emailed her and apologized, but she still wants me to move in with her, even if it’s just for … Continue reading

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My mother

Please don’t blame my mother for any of my problems.  She’s probably going to be the only one that will suffer from all of this.  She’s a good human being who is just flawed, like I am.  Part of the … Continue reading

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Reflecting on the last 2 days with K (my ex-girlfriend)

I got back to Grantham this morning after spending 2 nights with K.  Miraculously, my fish survived the journey to their new home and despite how anxious I was driving from here to Runcorn and back, I returned the rental … Continue reading

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I wasn’t prepared for any of this (living alone in a small English town, the past, fear of children and teenagers)

My mum and I are talking again, although nothing has been resolved and never will be.  She seems to have accepted that I’m leaving Grantham and our conversations have returned to the safety of talking about the cats.  I have … Continue reading

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I REALLY need to leave this place for good

I went to Nottingham yesterday on the train and took Persephone (my purple bike that I bought back from New York with me).  I took the train from Grantham as far as Radcliffe, then cycled the rest of the way.  … Continue reading

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Is there anybody actually out there?

Weekends are the worst and this weekend if no exception, especially as I have (for now) forced myself to stop drinking.  The loneliness is fucking unbearable, at a time when I really really need someone to talk to, even if … Continue reading

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