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She doesn’t understand privilege / intersectionality (met with my mum yesterday)

I went over  to my mum’s yesterday evening.  While it didn’t end in an argument or even get heated at any point (the wine helped), there were numerous occasions where I failed to make myself heard and understood.  She kept … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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Uglyface

I took the small lock box to my mum’s on Sunday evening.  Inside is a card and a USB flash drive containing my ‘final note’ and instructions for after my death.  Obviously, I didn’t tell her what was inside it … Continue reading

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I’m going to try living with K (my ex) for a while after all

K and I are talking again after the ‘misunderstanding’ from a couple of weeks ago.  She said that we can still try living together for a month to see how it goes.  I’m not thrilled by the idea, mainly because … Continue reading

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Drip, drip…fucking drip

I’m tired….really fucking tired and not just because I’m awake at 2 am yet again. This is a type of tiredness that sleep can’t fix, even if I were getting enough sleep. I feel far too alone and isolated, having.not … Continue reading

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I don’t feel ‘real’ anymore

In the eyes of many, I probably appear quite high functioning, but I am anything but. While I can cook, clean and wipe my own ass, but it’s often game over as soon as I have to deal with people … Continue reading

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The only people that I feel safe around are dead people

I really haven’t been out much due to my anxiety and depression getting the better of me, but I rode my folding bike for 40 minutes or so today and I wandered around the streets of Southwell semi-drunk on Saturday … Continue reading

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