Tag Archives: loneliness

These dark, intrusive thoughts have nowhere to go

I hate it that I can’t be fully open with what I’m going through at the moment on this blog, because I know that at least 3 people who knew me in person are watching.  All I can say is … Continue reading

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“You have no friends and people actually dislike you” (but most of the time, I don’t care)

When someone recently told me “You have no friends and people actually dislike you”, it didn’t bother me as much as she probably thought it would. It’s true and I know it’s true. The thing is, most of the time, … Continue reading

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Going ‘public’ again…

Even though I know that K will probably continue to spy on this blog, I’m making it ‘public’ again as I’ve finally got away from her and hopefully, I will never hear from her ever again. I should not have … Continue reading

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Plunging a knife into an open wound….

It’s bad enough seeing other people together as families or couples whenever I go out, but I know the envy that burns inside me is my problem and not theirs. However, when someone intentionally gloats about being in a relationship … Continue reading

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New Year’s Envy

I went to visit N yesterday in Skelmersdale. N is a lady that I met through K and of all the people I’ve met through K, N is the only decent one. K had sent me there to buy weed … Continue reading

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Thoughts of suicide as this terrible decade comes to an end….

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide (obviously)  My mum and her husband will be back from their mini-vacation in Norfolk in a couple of hours, so I thought I’d try to express my thoughts before they arrive.  I have to return to Runcorn … Continue reading

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I’m sure that I’m the only one up at almost 4 am, searching for posts on WordPress with the ‘loneliness’ tag.  I thought I’d find more posts than I found and I thought I’d fine a couple that I’d be … Continue reading

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