Tag Archives: Lorazepam

I wasn’t prepared for any of this (living alone in a small English town, the past, fear of children and teenagers)

My mum and I are talking again, although nothing has been resolved and never will be.  She seems to have accepted that I’m leaving Grantham and our conversations have returned to the safety of talking about the cats.  I have … Continue reading

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My anxiety is out of control

I’m tired of making plans and appointments, only to have to cancel every time because my anxiety gets the better of me and I find myself unable to go alone.  I was meant to go to the anxiety group in … Continue reading

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Another dream involving my ex-wife (why does life keep tormenting me like this?)

I woke up around 4 am this morning with a splitting headache, after having a dream involving my ex-wife that brought me to tears after the reality hit that it was just a dream and that she wasn’t really here.  … Continue reading

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Severe anticipatory dread regarding my HRT being at risk

It’s still another day before I find out whether or not my GP has decided to stop prescribing me hormones, based on the letter I received from the Gender Identity Clinic a few days ago.  When I spoke to the … Continue reading

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Made it to Toronto with no hiccups or scares along the way

It’s Sunday morning and I’m glad to say that I am safely in Toronto and free from Trump and the United States forever,  There is absolutely no going back this time; my mind was made up a long time ago.. … Continue reading

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End of an era

Today the American era of my existence on this world finally comes to an end. This is my last day in Rochester and my last day in the United States. After this, I have vowed to never return, not even … Continue reading

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The journey may be over, but the test is still to come….

I arrived at my mum’s safely around 3 pm yesterday.  The exhaustion didn’t hit me until a couple of hours ago, when I completely zonked out on my mum’s couch.  For now, it feels good to be back here with … Continue reading

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