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Hiding from you

I don’t know how much longer I’ll be able to continue hiding from you and world like this, but if and when it gets to the point that I can no longer hide, that will be the time I have … Continue reading

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I don’t want people as ‘friends’ (adult friendships are expendable)

I know I sound like a broken / stuck record by saying this, but I don’t even want friends anymore. All people do is cause me pain and hurt me, even if that wasn’t their intention. People lie and trick … Continue reading

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First of many meltdowns…

*** TRIGGER WARNING *** (self-harm, suicide) I had a total meltdown earlier, but at least it happened here in my room, rather than anywhere that I’d have been seen and possibly hospitalized. I knew it was coming, so with that … Continue reading

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The dreaded day…

I thought I was doing somewhat alright until a few hours ago, when loneliness crept up on me again. I’d been successfully keeping myself busy planning the itinerary for my return to the UK and booking train tickets and accommodation, … Continue reading

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Envy has ruined me (amongst other things)

If I’m completely honest, what causes me to dislike or even hate people isn’t necessarily because they’re bad, but because I envy them.  I see them living the lives that I wanted to live, experiencing the things that I’ve either … Continue reading

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