Tag Archives: mental health

My mother (and her husband) showed up and it ended badly

In case you give a flying fuck, no I’m not okay. My mum and her husband showed up at my flat earlier.  I didn’t know they were coming and I didn’t answer the door when I heard someone knocking, but … Continue reading

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Unsolicited advice (when there is no help or when treatment hasn’t worked)

All too often, I’ve seen people dish out unsolicited advice to those suffering from mental health problems and loneliness, usually along the lines of “Seek professional help” or “Call the suicide hotline number” or “Check yourself into hospital”.  While this may be appropriate advice to … Continue reading

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Just waiting to die (borrowed time)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation My existence has descended into little more than a lonely, binge drinking haze.  The bottle is now the only ‘friend’ I have left and the only thing I can trust in this world.  It doesn’t … Continue reading

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Suicide prevention is bullshit

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide SPA’s (suicide prevention activists) don’t care about preventing suffering, just preventing suicide. You can be suffering from a lifetime of mental illness, homeless, destitute and alone, but as long as you don’t attempt suicide, these people don’t … Continue reading

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Drip, drip…fucking drip

I’m tired….really fucking tired and not just because I’m awake at 2 am yet again. This is a type of tiredness that sleep can’t fix, even if I were getting enough sleep. I feel far too alone and isolated, having.not … Continue reading

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Social pariah

It’s 2 am and I can’t go back to sleep. I’m tired, but my mind won’t switch off and even if I did manage to fall asleep for another hour or so, I’d only have another nightmare, so it isn’t … Continue reading

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The toxicity of my envy (and dysphoria too)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, self-harm I have a huge problem with envy of others and I can’t control it. If it’s bad, it causes me to spiral into a depressive, self-destructive episode that can last for days. I have so many … Continue reading

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