Tag Archives: mental illness

The truths that I’ve been forced to live by

THE TRUTHS THAT I’VE BEEN FORCED TO LIVE BY: Looks are not only important, but extremely important in today’s image obsessed, superficial society. Money can buy happiness, especially if it involves paying for cosmetic surgery or being able to afford … Continue reading

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Four (completely infeasible) alternatives to suicide

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, dark thoughts It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep (surprise).  I feel tired, but I have a lot of restless energy and a mind racing with intrusive thoughts.  I’m angry at the world and angrier still with … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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Staring into the no-deal Brexit abyss (long, mostly emotion-based rant)

I’m really starting to worry incessantly about the approaching Brexit deadline on October 21, 2019.  It was supposed to happen on Match 31st, but the extension has allowed for an extension of my borrowed time and allowed me to spend … Continue reading

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“Everyone has problems” = shitty, unsolicited advice

A friend of mine in the US shared the meme above on her Facebook feed and it truly resonated with me.  Like me, she is alone and completely marginalised.  She lives with her parents and is terrified of what will … Continue reading

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Common traits with some mass shooters (mental illness, lack of support, loneliness, isolation and toxic envy)

As I’ve mentioned previously, I experience a lot of dark, intrusive thoughts.  These thoughts have become darker and more intrusive over the last few months in particular and I blame loneliness, isolation and intense envy of others.  Most of my … Continue reading

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Fake friends, fake people and saviors and why I’m tired of being conned by them

Fake friends are worse than enemies, because at least you can count on your enemies to hate you and they never tried to earn, the n betray your trust. I’m very angry right now, mostly angry at myself for allowing … Continue reading

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