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The anniversary of the day I should never have been born

I mentioned in my previous blog entry that it was my mum’s birthday on Friday. While I don’t celebrate it, it’s my birthday today and I’m spending It alone wand depressed with a bottle of vodka and a head full … Continue reading

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More issues with my mother (and non-lonely, privileged people in general who don’t understand)

It was my mum’s birthday the other day, so I sent her an email saying ‘happy birthday’.  I know that’s completely pathetic, but we are really not on good terms.  We did exchange a few emails and she sent me … Continue reading

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I wish I’d never come back to the United Kingdom (this is not my home anymore)

I truly fucked up when I returned to the United Kingdom last November. It was probably the second biggest mistake of my life, the first being dragging S (my ex-wife) into my hell and wasting 9 years of her life.  … Continue reading

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My mother

Please don’t blame my mother for any of my problems.  She’s probably going to be the only one that will suffer from all of this.  She’s a good human being who is just flawed, like I am.  Part of the … Continue reading

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Day one in Edinburgh (and I hate being me)

I wrote a long post about how my mother had upset me yesterday with her cynicism, but I ended up deleting it because I feel like I came across as whiny.  It’s difficult to explain the complexity of my relationship … Continue reading

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She doesn’t understand privilege / intersectionality (met with my mum yesterday)

I went over  to my mum’s yesterday evening.  While it didn’t end in an argument or even get heated at any point (the wine helped), there were numerous occasions where I failed to make myself heard and understood.  She kept … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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