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I’ve left Grantham for good

I’m at a Starbucks in St. Pancras International train station in London, waiting for my train to Amsterdam that doesn’t depart for another 6 hours, so I have a lot of time to kill.  I left Grantham for good at … Continue reading

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She doesn’t understand privilege / intersectionality (met with my mum yesterday)

I went over  to my mum’s yesterday evening.  While it didn’t end in an argument or even get heated at any point (the wine helped), there were numerous occasions where I failed to make myself heard and understood.  She kept … Continue reading

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Today was okay, but I’m dreading tomorrow (Saturday)

I cycled just over 30 miles this morning, from Grantham to Nottingham along the Grantham Canal and through the villages of Bottesford,  Aslockton and Bingham (the same route as last time).  It took me just over 3 hours, but I … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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Uglyface

I took the small lock box to my mum’s on Sunday evening.  Inside is a card and a USB flash drive containing my ‘final note’ and instructions for after my death.  Obviously, I didn’t tell her what was inside it … Continue reading

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Annoying, repetitive and invisible (this is me screaming into the void)

Sometimes I wonder if I should cut down on the amount of garbage I write here or even just stop completely for a while and just keep a private diary.  Whenever I write, I feel like I’m yelling into the … Continue reading

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The last pictures I’ll ever take of Grantham

I’m leaving in 8 days and those 8 days cannot pass quickly enough, although I’m also nervous about it as I’ll be venturing into the unknown.  I’m at my wit’s end with living in Grantham and I will never return … Continue reading

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