Tag Archives: mum

These dark, intrusive thoughts have nowhere to go

I hate it that I can’t be fully open with what I’m going through at the moment on this blog, because I know that at least 3 people who knew me in person are watching.  All I can say is … Continue reading

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Hurting (dysphoria, depression, spinal stenosis)

I hate the fact that I can’t be completely honest about why I’m feeling so fucking low at the moment, nor can I say where I’m currently staying. Most of my pain is dysphoria related and I can’t bring myself … Continue reading

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Back in Runcorn and feeling completely hopeless

I arrived back in Runcorn around noon, then walked straight to the bedsit. The journey from Grantham to Liverpool South Parkway on East Midlands Railway was fucking awful, as the train was ridiculously overcrowded for most of the journey, especially … Continue reading

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Black is the colour of Christmas

My mum and her husband are returning today from their mini-break with my two ‘normal’ younger half brothers. I’m going out for a meal with them later and to watch the movie Cats, although I really don’t feel up to … Continue reading

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Now it’s just me and the cat…

I made it to Grantham without any issues.  The train journey was only stressful on the stretch between Liverpool South Parkway and Manchester Oxford Rad.  After that, it emptied out and I was able to get a seat next to … Continue reading

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Reunited with an old cat friend

I went to Skelmersdale yesterday with K, to visit N, a friend of K’s who I’ve spoken to before. Of all of K’s friends that I’ve met, N is the only one that I can say is harmless and a … Continue reading

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I’m going back to Scotland

I’ve been trying to refrain from blogging at weekends, as weekends are almost always difficult for me. Last weekend was certainly no exception, but the election results on Friday 13th last week definitely made it worse. I hit the bottle … Continue reading

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