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A more difficult than usual weekend

I wasn’t going to update this thing again for a while because all I’m doing is talking to myself out loud and gone are the days when the internet was a place of solace and a place where I felt … Continue reading

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Tormented and triggered by nightmares and bad dreams

I do all I can to avoid my triggers and I avoid people, but then I have nightmares and bad dreams about the very things I try to avoid in real life at all costs.   I woke up in a … Continue reading

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It’s my mum’s birthday today and for some reason, it took an incredible amount of energy just to send a pathetic email to her to wish her a happy birthday.  I know she would have appreciated a card, but I … Continue reading

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PTSD nightmare hell

Sleep is a respite for most people, but for me the suffering doesn’t stop when I close my eyes.  Sometimes I feel that whatever or whoever is tormenting me is somehow enjoying this.  I can’t even temporarily escape hell without … Continue reading

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Situational bullshit update…

I’m still no closer to finding somewhere semi-permanent to live here in Rochester, but I’m possibly seeing a room over the weekend, having spoken to the girl that I’d be sharing with yesterday.  I’m not going to get my hopes … Continue reading

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Painful memories of parental favoritism entangled in nightmares

Do any of you have dreams or nightmares that are so bad and so vivid that they send your mood spiraling downwards, even hours after waking from them?   Nightmares and bad dreams are pretty much the norm for me, but … Continue reading

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Please make it stop

The nightmares….I can’t take them anymore.  It’s as if life won’t stop tormenting me, even when I’m asleep.  I don’t always remember specifics of the dreams and nightmares, but I know they were bad and enough to cause me to … Continue reading

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