Tag Archives: nightmares

Loneliness, intrusive thoughts, insomnia and fatigue

I’m a poor sleeper and I’ve been that way for several years.  The problem got worse not long after my marriage to S broke up in 2013.  These days, I’m lucky if I get 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep.  When … Continue reading

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The intense loneliness of being marginalised (I just want to die)

I didn’t choose to be different, I don’t want to be different and I don’t like being different.  Those who claim that being different or weird is so great are usually those who had a choice in he matter.  Some … Continue reading

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The ‘black dog’ barking at my door

I’m having a difficult time managing my depression.  I know what’s causing it and if you’re one of the 3 people that read my blog, you’ll know what’s causing it without me having to go into too much detail.  All … Continue reading

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Dystopian Brexit nightmares

Last night was the second night in a row that I’ve had a dystopian nightmare about Brexit Britain. The one I had on Sunday night / Monday morning was worse though.  In the nightmare, I was arrested for simply being … Continue reading

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Brexit might not happen after all (but I refuse to ‘hope’)

Even though my drinking has been helping me sleep a bit, it hasn’t stopped the nightmares or the intensity of them.  I should try to get more sleep as I’m going to London for the day later to get the … Continue reading

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Alone in the dark

I don’t wan to be awake right now, but I am.  It’s 3 am and even if I could get back to sleep, I don’t want to because I’m tired of the nightmares that have become so mentally exhausting in … Continue reading

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Unwell

They say that exposure to the things that cause you fear will toughen you, but this doesn’t seem to apply to me. When I go out, I’m in an almost continuous state of panic, unless I self-medicate, which I’ve been … Continue reading

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