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Dystopian Brexit nightmares

Last night was the second night in a row that I’ve had a dystopian nightmare about Brexit Britain. The one I had on Sunday night / Monday morning was worse though.  In the nightmare, I was arrested for simply being … Continue reading

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Brexit might not happen after all (but I refuse to ‘hope’)

Even though my drinking has been helping me sleep a bit, it hasn’t stopped the nightmares or the intensity of them.  I should try to get more sleep as I’m going to London for the day later to get the … Continue reading

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Alone in the dark

I don’t wan to be awake right now, but I am.  It’s 3 am and even if I could get back to sleep, I don’t want to because I’m tired of the nightmares that have become so mentally exhausting in … Continue reading

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Unwell

They say that exposure to the things that cause you fear will toughen you, but this doesn’t seem to apply to me. When I go out, I’m in an almost continuous state of panic, unless I self-medicate, which I’ve been … Continue reading

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What a waste (back from Scotland)

I got back late yesterday evening from Edinburgh, which is where I was staying since Tuesday. The whole thing was a complete waste of time and money, as I didn’t have the guts to do what I wanted to do. … Continue reading

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My anxiety is out of control

I’m tired of making plans and appointments, only to have to cancel every time because my anxiety gets the better of me and I find myself unable to go alone.  I was meant to go to the anxiety group in … Continue reading

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I don’t belong here, there or anywhere

I’ve been in a dark and lonely place for the last few days, even prior to seeing that headline about how the Trump Administration plan to erase transgender people’s identities (I wish someone would just ‘erase’ me from existence and … Continue reading

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