Tag Archives: NY

My hopeless housing search (too many obstacles, too much bullshit and too many dead ends)

I had grandiose plans to go out today and attempt cycling again, but my anxiety and depression and the non-stop rain outside have killed those plans. Instead I’m just here in my room, emailing every potential room ad on Craigslist … Continue reading

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Back to (un)supportive housing…

The property manager confirmed yesterday that I haven’t lost my old apartment and that I’m free to return.  My friend is taking me back today, after my therapy session at 4pm, which my care manager is also attending.  On paper, … Continue reading

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“She sees you as a man” (one of the worst days of my life)

I had yet another bomb dropped on me yesterday by my friend’s wife which was enough of a trigger to cause a major episode that landed me in the psychiatric emergency department.  I still have no idea why he chose … Continue reading

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I hate Rochester

Believe it or not, I’m, not a “negative person”, despite suffering from depression.  It takes a lot for me to truly hate a person or in this case, a place.  But as much as I hate to admit it, I … Continue reading

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Anxiety caused by legitimate “threats”

Whether my anxiety is justified or not, the end result is usually the same: panic, avoidance, agoraphobia and stress.  Most of my fears involve human beings and I know that some of those fears are justified and a natural response … Continue reading

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Thrown a potential lifeline

I intended to go out for a long walk tonight, but I’ve been feeling agoraphobic and lethargic since I woke up this morning.   Feeling lethargic is a relatively recent phenomenon and I’m wondering if tapering off my psych medication … Continue reading

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