Tag Archives: OCD

Four (completely infeasible) alternatives to suicide

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, dark thoughts It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep (surprise).  I feel tired, but I have a lot of restless energy and a mind racing with intrusive thoughts.  I’m angry at the world and angrier still with … Continue reading

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I feel like I’m losing control (envy, anger, hatred, very dark thoughts)

TRIGGER WARNING: all of it I s’snapped’ yesterday on Twitter, lashing out at dozens of people, many of whom were on my side.  I sad some awful things and even some disturbing things that I am not proud of.  I … Continue reading

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The intrusive thoughts that constantly torment me….

Single, ugly fuck Beautiful people everywhere A fake friend conned me again Family friendly fascism Brexit dread Missing you terribly Ugly voice I can’t forgive or forget I need to die Ugly fuck Alone, lonely, isolated Too tall to be … Continue reading

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Fear and envy have made me hateful

I don’t find the subject of envy particularly easy to talk about, but I have no one to discuss it with and I feel no one truly understands why I feel the way that I do. It’s reached the stage … Continue reading

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‘Obsessive’ envy of others is making me feel extremely depressed and suicidal…

I don’t know if I have OCD or not, but I do suffer from extremely obsessive and intrusive thoughts that do not ease up without either self medicating or a drastic change in circumstances (e.g. by running away from the … Continue reading

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