Tag Archives: panic

My anxiety is out of control

I’m tired of making plans and appointments, only to have to cancel every time because my anxiety gets the better of me and I find myself unable to go alone.  I was meant to go to the anxiety group in … Continue reading

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Yesterday’s debilitating, embarassing panic attack

I don’t want to sound like a stuck record, but I’m really really really struggling.  I had a particularly awful day yesterday, which led to one of the worst panic attacks that I’ve had in a while. I went to … Continue reading

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Shitmas

I’m not sure how much benefit I’m getting from the exercise involved in riding my bike when I find myself in a constant state of panic as soon as I leave my front door.  This causes me to run out … Continue reading

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Why bother going out at all?

Is it really worth going out at all if I have to self-medicate before, after and sometimes during?  Any benefit I’m getting from the exercise itself is cancelled out by alcohol consumption and benzo abuse anyway. I cycled into Newark … Continue reading

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Just had a proverbial atom bomb dropped on me….

This is just crazy.  It looks like I’m not going to be able to move in with the ‘friend of a friend’ tomorrow as planned because t they’ve had some sort of last minute falling out and my friend can’t … Continue reading

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PTSD nightmare hell

Sleep is a respite for most people, but for me the suffering doesn’t stop when I close my eyes.  Sometimes I feel that whatever or whoever is tormenting me is somehow enjoying this.  I can’t even temporarily escape hell without … Continue reading

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I’m done with travelling alone (and travelling in general)

Although it was good to see my friend and her cats yesterday, it turned out to be a very stressful day that has drained me of what feels like everything.  My friend didn’t stress me out, although there were times … Continue reading

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