Tag Archives: psychology

Mental health assessment, living situation and another broken phone

My mental health assessment yesterday went quite well.  I wrote down a list of as many of my issues as I could think of and saved it on my tablet to show the mental health professional I saw.  I was … Continue reading

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Anhedonia (inability to experience joy or pleasure)

I learnt a new word the other day: anhedonia, which means inability to experience pleasure.   Although anhedonia is a core symptom of depression, it’s a spectrum and I’m at the ass end of the anhedonia spectrum for sure.  All of … Continue reading

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Fake friends, fake people and saviors and why I’m tired of being conned by them

Fake friends are worse than enemies, because at least you can count on your enemies to hate you and they never tried to earn, the n betray your trust. I’m very angry right now, mostly angry at myself for allowing … Continue reading

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When fiction and fictional characters become emotional triggers

When I was young, television shows, moves and books were distractions from how shitty my life was (and still is).  I could watch pretty much anything and enjoy it and I read a lot of books.  But that isn’t the … Continue reading

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The ‘rational’ argument in favour of suicide and assisted dying

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide (obviously) I’m no fan of modern suicide prevention techniques for chronically suicidal people like me, nor am I a fan of ‘the ‘saviour’ SPA (suicide prevention activist) types.  The latter seem only concerned with preventing suicide itself, … Continue reading

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I don’t want to be here

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide I’m not looking for attention or pity and I’m especially not looking for unsolicited advice from random people trying to convince me to keep on going.  I’ve done a lot of reflecting and I cannot come up … Continue reading

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Dear random people on the internet: please stop telling me that “life is worth living”

I wish people who don’t know me or what I’ve gone through for most of my life would stop doubting my desire to die, as if it were some sort of whim or temporary problem, rather than a lifetime of … Continue reading

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