Tag Archives: PTSD

Unwell

They say that exposure to the things that cause you fear will toughen you, but this doesn’t seem to apply to me. When I go out, I’m in an almost continuous state of panic, unless I self-medicate, which I’ve been … Continue reading

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What a waste (back from Scotland)

I got back late yesterday evening from Edinburgh, which is where I was staying since Tuesday. The whole thing was a complete waste of time and money, as I didn’t have the guts to do what I wanted to do. … Continue reading

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My anxiety is out of control

I’m tired of making plans and appointments, only to have to cancel every time because my anxiety gets the better of me and I find myself unable to go alone.  I was meant to go to the anxiety group in … Continue reading

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Referred to the wrong place (yet again)

I received a letter today from the NHS operated mental health organization that I’d been told to ‘self refer’ to by my GP telling me that they are unable to help me, as they are only commissioned to treat ‘low … Continue reading

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Fear of children and teenagers (part 2,667,232)

And so it begins… 2 weeks of school holidays, meaning that I’m only going to be able to go out after dark or extremely early in the morning, due to my fear of children and teenagers.  I won’t be able … Continue reading

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Why bother going out at all?

Is it really worth going out at all if I have to self-medicate before, after and sometimes during?  Any benefit I’m getting from the exercise itself is cancelled out by alcohol consumption and benzo abuse anyway. I cycled into Newark … Continue reading

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Please let this shared / temporary accommodation nightmare be over soon. (I can’t live with strangers)

I’m not back at the Airbnb after spending 3 nights at my mum’s, while her and her husband went to stay with a friend of theirs.  I got to spend time with the cats and had a brief break from … Continue reading

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