Tag Archives: PTSD

Referred to the wrong place (yet again)

I received a letter today from the NHS operated mental health organization that I’d been told to ‘self refer’ to by my GP telling me that they are unable to help me, as they are only commissioned to treat ‘low … Continue reading

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Fear of children and teenagers (part 2,667,232)

And so it begins… 2 weeks of school holidays, meaning that I’m only going to be able to go out after dark or extremely early in the morning, due to my fear of children and teenagers.  I won’t be able … Continue reading

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Why bother going out at all?

Is it really worth going out at all if I have to self-medicate before, after and sometimes during?  Any benefit I’m getting from the exercise itself is cancelled out by alcohol consumption and benzo abuse anyway. I cycled into Newark … Continue reading

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Please let this shared / temporary accommodation nightmare be over soon. (I can’t live with strangers)

I’m not back at the Airbnb after spending 3 nights at my mum’s, while her and her husband went to stay with a friend of theirs.  I got to spend time with the cats and had a brief break from … Continue reading

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A more difficult than usual weekend

I wasn’t going to update this thing again for a while because all I’m doing is talking to myself out loud and gone are the days when the internet was a place of solace and a place where I felt … Continue reading

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Tormented and triggered by nightmares and bad dreams

I do all I can to avoid my triggers and I avoid people, but then I have nightmares and bad dreams about the very things I try to avoid in real life at all costs.   I woke up in a … Continue reading

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Everything is draining (chronic tiredness)

One of the reasons why I don’t think I’ll survive in this world is that even seemingly minor and mundane tasks drain me, to the extent that I’m often wiped out for the rest of the entire day.  I went … Continue reading

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