Tag Archives: school holidays

Four (completely infeasible) alternatives to suicide

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, dark thoughts It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep (surprise).  I feel tired, but I have a lot of restless energy and a mind racing with intrusive thoughts.  I’m angry at the world and angrier still with … Continue reading

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I wish there were childfree communities

You’ve probably guessed by now from many of my blog entries that I don’t like children;  in fact, I hate them.  Before you jump down my throat for it, it’s not the kind of hate that would ever lead me … Continue reading

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The end of an awful two weeks

I leave South Shields tomorrow, thank fuck.  I’m going back to Scotland, where I have an Airbnb flat booked for almost an entire month.  This has been an awful two week period in which I’ve descended into alcoholism again, as … Continue reading

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No, I don’t like to be beside the seaside

I used to love the sea, summer and beaches when I was a kid, despite never being fond of summer weather.  But that’s when I fit in and was part of a (fake) family unit and had a friend or … Continue reading

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Envy of others has completely poisoned me (feeling ugly, alone and left behind)

I went to Edinburgh yesterday and did nothing but get very drunk.  I just wanted to get out of England and specifically out of South Shields, the town where I’m currently staying, which I’ve dubbed as ‘Grantham-by-the-Sea, for its obvious … Continue reading

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My life just became more difficult (bike vandalised, loneliness, time to go)

I’ve only been back in England (South Shields)  for 3 days and already Persephone (my bike)  has been completely vandalised.  I was going to take her out today and I came down to find the tyres slashed, the bell destroyed … Continue reading

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New Aquarium

I now have a fully functional, almost fully kitted out aquarium, although I can’t add any actual fish for 2 weeks or so, as the water has to be treated first.  Its still quite soothing, both to look at and … Continue reading

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