Tag Archives: self harm

Another highly triggering encounter with my mother (family of origin)

TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm I had a truly awful day yesterday (Tuesday), which culminated in another major fight with my mother.  Once again, she managed to upset me when I went over to her house around lunchtime.  I only went … Continue reading

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Relapse day

TRIGGER WARNING: alcoholism, self-harm Today I drank 3/4 of a bottle of vodka.  I didn’t plan on today being the day I finally gave in, bit after going out earlier and discovering that kids and teenagers were off school due … Continue reading

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My ‘tattoo’ to show the world that I hate myself more than you

TRIGGER WARNING: self harm, cutting     I’m so sick and tired of being ugly that I decided that my ‘tattoo’ on my left arm needed re-enhancing.   I fucking hate myself and I’m tired of looking this way.  My appearance … Continue reading

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I am a broken mess

TRIGGER WARNING (self-harm, alcoholism) My head is all over the place.  I’ve been spending my time trying to kill time (and my liver).  I’m going through a bottle of vodka a day now, sometimes more.  I could stop myself, but … Continue reading

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Alone and scared

This house is rapidly being emptied out by my roommates and their team of men, friends and boyfriends.  K is hardly ever here and I fear that L is about to move out, taking both cats with her.  I’m not … Continue reading

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First of many meltdowns…

*** TRIGGER WARNING *** (self-harm, suicide) I had a total meltdown earlier, but at least it happened here in my room, rather than anywhere that I’d have been seen and possibly hospitalized. I knew it was coming, so with that … Continue reading

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“She sees you as a man” (one of the worst days of my life)

I had yet another bomb dropped on me yesterday by my friend’s wife which was enough of a trigger to cause a major episode that landed me in the psychiatric emergency department.  I still have no idea why he chose … Continue reading

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