Tag Archives: self-medication

Living here has been like serving a 6 month prison sentence

I don’t have to express how much I hate weekends, especially here in Grantham.  I’m tired of feeling like a prisoner stuck in my flat, unable to go out because of the plethora of kids, teenagers and families living in … Continue reading

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Another highly triggering encounter with my mother (family of origin)

TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm I had a truly awful day yesterday (Tuesday), which culminated in another major fight with my mother.  Once again, she managed to upset me when I went over to her house around lunchtime.  I only went … Continue reading

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My mother (and her husband) showed up and it ended badly

In case you give a flying fuck, no I’m not okay. My mum and her husband showed up at my flat earlier.  I didn’t know they were coming and I didn’t answer the door when I heard someone knocking, but … Continue reading

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Unwell

They say that exposure to the things that cause you fear will toughen you, but this doesn’t seem to apply to me. When I go out, I’m in an almost continuous state of panic, unless I self-medicate, which I’ve been … Continue reading

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This is worrying the shit out of me (HRT, transition)

I wasn’t going to mention this until after I’ve spoken to my GP, but this issue is worrying the shit out of me and keeping me awake.   On Monday, my mum gave me a letter sent to me from the … Continue reading

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“She’d feel alone in a crowded room” (‘Julie’ by The Levellers)

This probably isn’t a surprise to the 2-3 people still reading this stupid blog, but I’m having a very difficult weekend, struggling with feelings of loneliness, hopelessness and I still feel physically ill and exhausted, because of the heat and … Continue reading

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I can’t take much more of this (the summer of hell, hyperhidrosis, feeling trapped and socially isolated)

The death of animals at the hands of human beings and animal cruelty seems to affect me more than people being cruel to one another these days. While we continue to destroy this planet by polluting it and consuming its … Continue reading

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