Tag Archives: Seroquel

End of an era

Today the American era of my existence on this world finally comes to an end. This is my last day in Rochester and my last day in the United States. After this, I have vowed to never return, not even … Continue reading

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“She’d feel alone in a crowded room” (‘Julie’ by The Levellers)

This probably isn’t a surprise to the 2-3 people still reading this stupid blog, but I’m having a very difficult weekend, struggling with feelings of loneliness, hopelessness and I still feel physically ill and exhausted, because of the heat and … Continue reading

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Actually, I kind of do hate people (including myself, most of all)

My anger and frustration at my living situation has been getting the better of me lately, as I feel suffocated by both of my roommates and trapped in my room when they’re home (even though they are not telling me … Continue reading

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Sunday morning (cycling, ruminating, reflecting)

I’ll be glad to put this particular Airbnb guest house experience behind me when I leave on Thursday. This is the first and last time I’ll ever stay in such a place. There are 2 other guests here, one of … Continue reading

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Putting Persephone to work

After not going out at all yesterday, I popped 2 Lorazepam and drank some kratom tea to take the edge off my anxiety, then spent all morning and some of the afternoon out on my bike, Persephone. I went to … Continue reading

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Sunday thoughts….

The only time I’ll go out on a weekend is on Sunday morning, so I decided to take Persephone for a ride downtown and back again, via Wegmans to get a few groceries and Public Storage to get some of … Continue reading

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Watching me drown….

I took 3 Seroquel last night from my emergency stash in order to knock myself out, in the hope that I’d feel less awful when I woke up.  While Seroquel certainly knocked me out, I don’t feel any less awful … Continue reading

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