Tag Archives: Seroquel

When I say “There is no help”, I mean it

It should be no surprise when I say that I’m having an extremely difficult time with my living situation, dysphoria and mental health problems.  I don’t know what to do anymore, because I no longer have the money to find … Continue reading

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A possible way out

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, drugs Contrary to what people like to assume about me, I really do want to die and have done for many years.  People like to assume that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but … Continue reading

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Loneliness, intrusive thoughts, insomnia and fatigue

I’m a poor sleeper and I’ve been that way for several years.  The problem got worse not long after my marriage to S broke up in 2013.  These days, I’m lucky if I get 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep.  When … Continue reading

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End of an era

Today the American era of my existence on this world finally comes to an end. This is my last day in Rochester and my last day in the United States. After this, I have vowed to never return, not even … Continue reading

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“She’d feel alone in a crowded room” (‘Julie’ by The Levellers)

This probably isn’t a surprise to the 2-3 people still reading this stupid blog, but I’m having a very difficult weekend, struggling with feelings of loneliness, hopelessness and I still feel physically ill and exhausted, because of the heat and … Continue reading

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Actually, I kind of do hate people (including myself, most of all)

My anger and frustration at my living situation has been getting the better of me lately, as I feel suffocated by both of my roommates and trapped in my room when they’re home (even though they are not telling me … Continue reading

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Sunday morning (cycling, ruminating, reflecting)

I’ll be glad to put this particular Airbnb guest house experience behind me when I leave on Thursday. This is the first and last time I’ll ever stay in such a place. There are 2 other guests here, one of … Continue reading

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