Tag Archives: sleep

No longer a ‘night owl’

I used to be a night owl until I changed my sleep pattern to wake up early and fall asleep earlier My depression is worse in the evenings and worse still at night, when loneliness seems to affect me far … Continue reading

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Yesterday’s debilitating, embarassing panic attack

I don’t want to sound like a stuck record, but I’m really really really struggling.  I had a particularly awful day yesterday, which led to one of the worst panic attacks that I’ve had in a while. I went to … Continue reading

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Living or staying with strangers long-term (never again!)

One of the biggest mistakes I’ve made of recent years was when I gave up a supportive housing apartment to go and live in a shared house with roommates, thinking that it would make me feel less lonely.  If anything, … Continue reading

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A more difficult than usual weekend

I wasn’t going to update this thing again for a while because all I’m doing is talking to myself out loud and gone are the days when the internet was a place of solace and a place where I felt … Continue reading

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I don’t belong here, there or anywhere

I’ve been in a dark and lonely place for the last few days, even prior to seeing that headline about how the Trump Administration plan to erase transgender people’s identities (I wish someone would just ‘erase’ me from existence and … Continue reading

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Tormented and triggered by nightmares and bad dreams

I do all I can to avoid my triggers and I avoid people, but then I have nightmares and bad dreams about the very things I try to avoid in real life at all costs.   I woke up in a … Continue reading

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Ugly in a beautiful city

I made it to Inverness yesterday and the journey was relatively stress-free.   I had a 5 hours wait in Edinburgh between trains and as I didn’t feel like paying 15 pounds to store my suitcase and carry-on, I was pretty … Continue reading

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