Tag Archives: social anxiety

Day one in Edinburgh (and I hate being me)

I wrote a long post about how my mother had upset me yesterday with her cynicism, but I ended up deleting it because I feel like I came across as whiny.  It’s difficult to explain the complexity of my relationship … Continue reading

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Drip, drip…fucking drip

I’m tired….really fucking tired and not just because I’m awake at 2 am yet again. This is a type of tiredness that sleep can’t fix, even if I were getting enough sleep. I feel far too alone and isolated, having.not … Continue reading

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Dyspraxia + anxiety + the ‘trans curse’ = embarrassment

I hate Friday nights and weekends, but at least the school holidays are coming to an end on Monday, so I can try to resume my usual ‘going out’ routine when it isn’t dark or extremely early in the morning. … Continue reading

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Shitmas

I’m not sure how much benefit I’m getting from the exercise involved in riding my bike when I find myself in a constant state of panic as soon as I leave my front door.  This causes me to run out … Continue reading

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Not going to happen today (anxiety Meetup group)

I’m going to have to cancel my RSVP to that Meetup.com anxiety group in Nottingham today.  The organizer of the group did email me back and he seemed really nice, but it’s just not going to happen today for me … Continue reading

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Please let this shared / temporary accommodation nightmare be over soon. (I can’t live with strangers)

I’m not back at the Airbnb after spending 3 nights at my mum’s, while her and her husband went to stay with a friend of theirs.  I got to spend time with the cats and had a brief break from … Continue reading

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A more difficult than usual weekend

I wasn’t going to update this thing again for a while because all I’m doing is talking to myself out loud and gone are the days when the internet was a place of solace and a place where I felt … Continue reading

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